since i had nothing to do today. and somebody canceled meeting with me (yeah, he lost his purse in a very laughable way) i’ve dug up some file in the deepest kilobyte of my hard disk. and i found something interesting. yeah, rie-chan otanjoubi photo’s and videos. (along with lydia’s file and my 19th birthday) after opened up some files, i’ve found a video contain our joyous moment in lydia’s birthday party, the place was NAF NAF Karaoke. and we were singing INGATLAH HARI INI by Project-Pop. it was such a joy back then, since i don’t know (or i maybe know something going on back there but dont care) what exactly happen underneath our friendship with one of my friends. and don’t know why those videos make me weep a little, and i’ve begun questioning myself, what if we were the same today like that video? will somebody found salvation (hello? you know what im talking bout rite?) or maybe will i lose my weight like now? (yeah my goal was to be a perfect fit around him.. not like an O with 1 walking around in some mall) i think truth got a price on it’s own, and you cant always get a happy ending do you?
yeah i think everything changes, including our friendship. it evolves and some reverse. but im happy with me now if you asked me.. he still around me and i’ve got new girl to check out.
i knew i cant get it all but maybe this is the BEST SCENARIO in my life i’ve ever had. and im not COMPLAINING bout it now. yeah. whatever. have a nice day. break a leg.
maybe i just miss that little moment. but memories are suppose to be memories rite?
(Soundtrack on this :big girls don’t cry- Fergie)
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