yeah things happen a lot in these few days.
i always worried bout him, will she treat him well? will she make him happy (i mean FOREVER) but after i knew the truth (yes, she loved him, just don’t know how to show it proportionally.)
then i begun to question myself.
my goal was to make him happy in every single way, yes HIM isn’t it irritating to have somebody you care and love is in the same gender as you? yeah our friendship goes along way. and im afraid if he being hurt by ANYBODY.
now after realize that he was happy. im scared now, will our relationship wither in future? cause now he got a GF and my relationship with my wanna-be GF is stuck at the moment. im just to afraid to lose him, since he was the only one that understand me (hello, since i dont have any brother he was like a brother to me, even he was a year older, i was the one that act like his older brother. ok cut it. just brother)
my final question is not about him. but about me.
can i really let him go? cause i’ve cared too much. i just afraid.
i still dont know now. but GOD, if you read these blog (hahhaa, sure do.)
give me power to let him go, give me power to free from this sadness and worry state.
and after all, yes i’ve cried last night. cause i know now i have to go since i dont have anything to do to make him happy, he is happy now.
but what about me? do i happy now? i dont know.
isn’t it funny? i tried to desperately help people and act like a hero, but in the end it was myself who needed salvation but scared to ask cause a told myself i am a "HERO"?
GOD, give me somebody to ease this pain, give my world a glitch of light to penetrate the darkness that surround me now. do i ask to much?
see ya guys. im not to well now.
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